I must preface what I am about to type with a little background detail.  It has recently been suggested to me that if I do not have anyone to vent my frustrations to that I should start a journal or diary of some kind.  From time to time in the past I have posted a couple thoughts, but probubly not as much as I should, given my recent levels of frustrations with people.  But maybe, just maybe blogging on a more regular basis, while public, will serve the purpose.

There is a young lady I know, and that I see almost every day, who is obsessed with here looks, and not in a good way.  I am about 13 years older than she and I actually feel youngre than she does.  She is above and beyond annoying, constantly talking about tanning, coloring her hair, microderm abrassion, anything to stay looking young.  Others around her, along with myself, have done everything in our power to convice her she is wrong, way off base.  Physically I think she is gorgeous.  Mentally and emotionally is where she can be completely unattractive.

And how she treats others, in a way, is from what I’ve seen another way she tries to make herself feel youthful. Insults are not out of the realm of her capacity. She has gone as far as to call me ‘Arthritic’ because I have issues with a knee due to injury.  I’m in my 40’s. Injuries kinda come with the territory as time goes by.  I didn’t take what she said to heart as much as she wishes I would have.  It just made me more concerned for her.  She honestly believes that aging is a curse.  For me, I actually am happier and healthier now than I ever was in my 20’s and 30’s.  Unfortunately I only see her life becoming worse instead of better.

I only wish I knew why she thinks the way she does.  Is it howshe was raised?  Social influences? Friends she is surrounded by?  I wish I knew.

Others in the world could see here behavior as just Vanity run amuck.  I don’t.  I see a young woman who is hurting and there is nothing I know that will help.